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Billie Lourd was publicly saddened when her mother, Carrie Fisher, and her grandmother, Debbie Reynolds, died within a day of each other in 2016.

And now the “American Horror Story” starlet, 29, is speaking candidly about the loss of her superstar relatives in the latest episode new day podcastStreaming on Spotify.

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“It was brutal. It was really, really brutal, and I still hesitate and stutter because it’s really hard on me,” Lourd said.

The brunette beauty was Fisher’s only child—famous for her roles in “Star Wars,” “The Blues Brothers” and “When Harry Met Sally.” Fischer died on December 27, 2016, aged 60, after spending four days in intensive care.

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The next day, Reynolds — Fischer’s mother and star of “Singin’ in the Rain” among countless other films — Died at the age of 84 after suffering a stroke.

The double tragedies suddenly left Lourd without her closest relatives, and she struggles to adjust to their absence afterward.

Nearly five years later, Lourd says she still feels a huge loss.

“I miss my mom and my grandmother every day, but really, what I miss the most is my mom,” she confessed.

“She was the greatest, funniest person ever. She was the best f—king friend I’ve ever had. There’s no one who’s ever been as funny as her. She was just — she’s amazing.”

Lourd told New Day Pod that she rarely speaks openly about her famous mother and grandmother, for fear that her remarks may be misunderstood by the media.

She added: “Everything I say turns into some title I didn’t mean.”

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The actress then cited a particular example, saying: “It’s a [interview] Where I said something, and it was like three months after he died. I didn’t know who the f-k I was talking about or who the f-k I was or what was going on. And I said something like, ‘Okay, now that they’re gone, I have to be Billy.'”

“It looked like I wanted them to die, and it’s the exact opposite of what I wanted. I would do anything to bring them back, but it looked like I was excited for ‘The Billy Show.'”

Lourd also admitted that she actively resisted publicly associating herself with Fisher and Reynolds while they were alive because she wanted to forge her own path as an actress.

Billie Lourd was publicly saddened when her mother, Carrie Fisher, and her grandmother, Debbie Reynolds, died within a day of each other in 2016.

But he says he now regrets that decision.

The star said, “We were offered all these random photoshoots and all the weird things that happen in my life, but I didn’t want to do them while I was alive because I wanted to make sure that people knew me differently than them.” Huh.” .

“Now I wish I could run back and do all those photoshoots and really do anything with them.”

Since the death of Fisher and Reynolds, Lord herself has become a mother. In September last year, she gave birth to her son Kingston with fiancé Austen Riedel.

back in may, Lourd shared a sweet photo of himself and his young son Watching your mom in an old “Star Wars” movie.