Alexandra Burke cried as she opened up about her mother’s death on Celebrity SAS: Who Dares Wins.
The 33-year-old singer lost her mother Melissa Bell in 2017 while she was touring the UK with the stage show Sister Act.
The former X Factor alum struggled with challenges during last night’s installment of the Channel 4 series, when she was brought in for a discussion with trainers Ant Middleton and Melvin Downs.
When Ant asked how she was feeling, Alexandra admitted that she felt “tired”, but insisted that she did not want to leave the show.
Despite her insistence that she was “fine”, 40-year-old Ant commented that he saw “self-doubt” in Alexandra and asked if anything had broken her confidence.
Alexandra replied: “It really comes from many places, and I think that’s the first place … I get my trust from my mother.
“That was my weapon, that was my secret weapon.”
Emotionally, Alexandra said: “For not having her, I feel like I have lost all my purpose. The day she left, I think … is the day she took me.”
The star burst into tears discussing her late mother Melissa and recalled how she died in her arms in 2017.
“And she died in my arms and she waited four hours for me to drive through the f***ing Blackpool,” she said through tears.
After their emotional conversation, the coaches urge Alexandra to stay out of the competition and remind her that she is the last woman.
Melissa, a singer in the iconic ’90s R&B act Soul II Soul, was only 53 years old when she tragically passed away on August 28, 2017 after suffering from diabetes mellitus – a hereditary condition – and kidney ailments Gaya.
Speaking about her death on Elizabeth’s Day how to fail In the February podcast, Alexandra described how her mother’s health had “spiraled” after she suffered a stroke eight months earlier.
Alexandra, who was on tour at the time, wept as she described her mother’s final moments.
She said: “The last day of my show, I ended up in Blackpool, I was on my way back to London and I got a call saying ‘You need to come to the hospital now’, so I went to the hospital and he died within 10 minutes Gone. My arms.”
During the podcast, Alexandra said that her biggest regret was not giving up on the tour after her mother’s stroke.
She said: “I lost those nine months, I regret going on tour. I deeply regret it, I had so much time on the road with my mom.
“I should have told my mother, ‘Look, you’re my priority, I want to leave the tour and be with you.’
But he said his mother, whom he described as his “inspiration”, urged him not to give up on the tour despite his health.
Alexandra said: “I had eight months left and I sat her in the hospital and said, ‘Mom I’m going to skip the tour’, and you know what she said?
“She said, ‘At first I didn’t raise a quitter,’ and she said, ‘You get your black a***e on stage. People paid you money to see you perform.'”
Alexandra decided to go ahead with the tour but kept her phone with her at all times to get regular updates on her mother’s health.
She said: “If something had happened to her, I would have left the show and then I would drive anywhere in Manchester, Sheffield, I would sleep on the hospital floor, then go back to London.”
But she said: “I was 29 years old when my mother passed away and I was very lucky that my mother turned 29.
“What we shared, our memories we made together, money can’t buy it.”
Alexandra rose to fame after winning The X Factor in 2008.
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