emmerdale Star Lisa Riley on Monday revealed that she is still saddened nine years after her beloved mother passed away.
Speaking on ITV’s LORRAINEThe 45-year-old actress elaborated on her ongoing struggles as she announced she was starting a podcast about grief.
Lisa’s mother, Cathy, battled breast cancer for more than a decade before dying in her daughter’s arms in 2012.
‘People think I should get over this by now’: tearful Lisa Riley admits she felt ‘justified’ for continuing to mourn for her mother nine years after her death during an appearance on Lorraine do
Lisa said there is no timetable for losing a loved one, and “everyone deals with loss in their own way” – something she will explore in the podcast.
She also touched on the fact that she feels ‘justified’ for continuing to grieve nearly a decade after her mother’s tragic passing.
He thought: ‘I wanted to be incredibly honest and tell the truth about what I do daily.
‘The hard fight I have fought is being done justice. I put it on set with Emmerdale when I’m at work.’
Heartbreaking: Lisa’s mother, Cathy, battled breast cancer for more than a decade before dying in her daughter’s arms in 2012 (pictured together)
Lisa – who plays Mandy Dingle in the ITV soap – continued: ‘Everyone knows me as this fun, happy personality that I am. But the days I’m down, I find myself going “it’s okay, it’s okay” because I feel like I’m being judged.
‘ People are like, “Come on, it’s been nine years – you should have gotten over this by now.” Well no – it’s as bad today as it was nine years ago in July when my mother passed away.’
Kathy was diagnosed with breast cancer in 2000 and died 12 years later surrounded by her family.
Heartbreaking: Speaking on Lorraine, the 45-year-old actress detailed her ongoing struggles as she announced she was starting a podcast about grief
Lisa told The Mirror shortly after: ‘[The cancer] went into her ovaries, then into her pelvis. When it reaches the pelvis … boom, it spins around the body like a firework. I knew then that it was not good.
‘She died in my arms. She was at my house. The whole family was there and we laughed together in the morning that he passed away.
‘That was mother. It was wonderful. He had dignity. She was funny and kept smiling till the end.
Take it at your own pace: Lisa says there’s no timetable for losing a loved one, and ‘everyone deals with loss in their own way’
talking to Metro Earlier this month, Lisa spoke about her mother’s final days, revealing that Kathy had been living on just one baby yogurt a day and was in palliative care.
Despite her ill health, Cathy decides she wants to celebrate Lisa’s birthday with food.
Lisa recalled ‘It really broke my heart because it made such a difference. She came to the restaurant, she was very spoiled, and as usual, she ordered her garlic prawns.’
Fighting back tears, Lisa continued: ‘She was very sick, but she did and she was there forever so I can remember it. For my birthday, he made that effort. I wonder what legacy to leave in life.’
The Verdict: Lisa (pictured on Emerdale) also touched on the fact that she feels ‘justified’ for continuing to grieve nearly a decade after her mother’s tragic passing